Unreached Words - One sided Conversance

You convinced me to understand your situation, but it's been a while now;

Days keep passing by, with a blink nights turn mornings;

But courage in me remains the same and your absence still makes me void.

I am so sorry to bring this up again, but I can't pretend anymore;

you may find it insane, I can't hold my mind anymore;

That I fall in love with you every day, and it's true that I still search for your smiles.

It's not that I didn’t even try, you won't believe my words;

I tried really hard, even listened to music and to anything pleasing;

And I even felt the vibes, but the difference is vibes were all about you.

You know what, you have made a mark on me ;

That you are in a million, you are always worth to chase;

But, I am afraid I would have to choose to live my life like this.

Those meetings were so beautiful and lively,

But as far as I know you, a meeting may not be possible again;

But remember,  I still  meet your fragrance wherever I go.

Yes, my world is scattered and shattered all over,

but I am happy at the end of the day, because you are the dream I dream every night,

And I still choose to live like this, because the love you showed has that power.

I don’t actually believe in this re-incarnation kind of  things;

but now that  there is so much distance between us;

If the God assures me and makes it my belief too, I would kill myself instantly.

My Words Are True and Pure...I Hope They Find You Someday.

A silent voice

......There has been a fog of pain inside me, which I have been keeping deep down suppressed.

With the things happened in life ,it eventually started fading, scattering and got thinner . But it never got cleared and can never forget what had happened then.

The more I tried, the more it got deeper and denser. I have never told to anyone except my family ;my well-wishers. They have seen me and felt a bit of pain in me.

I thought time will make it alright, but what a life it has been.. Time instead, revolved and brought the same thing in a different way.

This time, at that moment, I tried my best to hold myself back as I was scared of that phase ,of that pain and about those haunting sleepless nights but my heart got released itself and skipped few beats. But it was happy and overwhelmed with true emotions.

Then when I realized after that moment, nothing was left in me except a more denser fog of pain than the one I had years ago......