A silent voice

......There has been a fog of pain inside me, which I have been keeping deep down suppressed.

With the things happened in life ,it eventually started fading, scattering and got thinner . But it never got cleared and can never forget what had happened then.

The more I tried, the more it got deeper and denser. I have never told to anyone except my family ;my well-wishers. They have seen me and felt a bit of pain in me.

I thought time will make it alright, but what a life it has been.. Time instead, revolved and brought the same thing in a different way.

This time, at that moment, I tried my best to hold myself back as I was scared of that phase ,of that pain and about those haunting sleepless nights but my heart got released itself and skipped few beats. But it was happy and overwhelmed with true emotions.

Then when I realized after that moment, nothing was left in me except a more denser fog of pain than the one I had years ago......

11/11:11/11.11/1111

         

      Since 2011, You have been an exceptional pattern to me.

I have been noticing you lately, I am not sure what kind of message you are trying to convey or influence you are pushing on me but it's surprising that I have been seeing you almost every day, some way or the other. With an impulse I see you at an unusual timing, there you are  looking at me from wall clocks, following a vehicle with a registration number with you in it, it's not surprising that my college roll numbers have been you. I do board the flights through  gates numbered as you. There have been many unexpected instances  which I can relate to... Whatever it is, You are very familiar to me now.

      Some  usual / unusual events in life have eventually made me realized that you have been a lucky charm all these years. Yes many good things have happened in life and somewhere I feel, You are also related to it. These things have become so used to that I started counting on you.  Sometimes I make myself so related to you that I keep thinking, may be you are a wake-up call to me, like I may find something or someone very special in November month of a year, like somebody would come on eleventh of any month and bring a great change in me,  like my  partner will have a name with eleven alphabets or must have born in November, like I add up the numbers which I see to get you in it (for instance 3/3/88),like I may die on eleventh of any month or in November or on eleventh of November month and so on...

Yeah!! it's funny...but you have become a part and I would always treasure you as I can relate many good instances with you.

A Manipuri Poem on...Ngakti Ngak Ae Punsi Nangse…

Nungshibanina Adum Nungshi,

Adum Nungshirakpanina Adum Nungshikhigani.

Ngamloi Nangbu Kaoba, Punsi Sina Hinliba Makhei,

Ngamloi Nangi Wakhal Thadokpa, Wakhal Sina Leptriba Makhei.

Ishwar Nangsu Angakpani,

Thouna Sum Haappaklaga , Panthungfam Youramdaida Warise Hekta Maikei Olhalli.

Ngaktaba Ngamde Punsi Sisu, Angakpagi Angakpa Ngaakta,

Nungaina Hinge Khanba Mitkupta, Nungairoidaba Mayamna Pik Thalli.

Amukhak Hingba Punsi Ni, Nungaiba Manglan Kaya Mangkhi

Adubu Punsi Nangi Angakpa Thokhan Ningdaba Thouram Mayam Sina,

Thamoi Amadi Wakhal Bu Adum Nungaihande .

Thamoi Amadi Wakhal na nungaitraga Eina karamna Nungaidoiba..

Nangi thoudok nangi thouram ngaaktani..Khallu Punsi Nangsu Amuktang..

Ngakti Ngak Ae Nangse Tasengna….

                                                                              

The Truth behind me...

I have been serving all these years,

I have been standing all these years,

But, I still don’t get the respect I deserve.

I have been working for a cleaner earth,

I have been tolerating all the abuses,

But, I still don’t get the value I deserve.

I have been accepting all the rubbishes,

I have been doing my duty very sincerely,

But, now I feel I am suffering a lot.

I always stand wherever you like,

I take care of you and help you stay healthy,

But, you don’t understand my feelings and takes me for granted.

I have been served with anything you don’t want;

Last night’s dinner, rotten long out of date foods, papers, anything useless,

But, I still don’t want to be treated as a useless box.

I too know, my name is Dustbin,

I too know, my duty is to keep your surrounding clean,

But please value my duty and give due respect by keeping me clean too.

Keep me clean to make your surrounding cleaner.

                Happy Dustbins, Clean Homes.

                                                                

A year in Manipal - made some beautiful attachments

Well, a year with u guys was so wonderful that I never realised time was running much faster than me...though we were divided into two different so called classes;EMAL and PESC ...we never felt in that way.

...Those starting days , when people getting drenched for not having an umbrella and some stealing others when they lost one (Dasa and Varun were the first victims)...

...those birthday parties, out at different places..but BIG BOSS has been the best in the town (Sushant, happy?)..maybe it was because of that 10% discount we always got...

...those teasings which were never ending one...calling out with different names...Swami (always at the top), Nairrey (pure Nair), Pandi (started wearing only formal pants), Baba (done PhD in searching names), Hello Gayatri (always busy with his android handset), Kuchipudi (who has 25% attendance for being a responsible CR), Billa bhai (G-zo CEO), Local Paapi (who sees only one girl because she is 90% similar to his fiancée), Universal Paapi (Aithal sir's favorite student), Kaamesh (doing his internship in BIG BOSS),Superstar,Liliput,Amul baby and so on...

...those semester exam's fever..for which the 'Peracetamol ' was only the nightouts..and ending up the exam just by screwing some way or the other...

So, finally the junction has come to each and everyone's path of life...

where we always say 'Forget Me Not, Keep In Touch'...but in reality...the real meaning of these words gets thinner and smaller with time..

...finally the time has come when we realize the strangeness of life where each of us is so unsure where we are destined to go...but who cares where we gets in tomorrow, right? But make sure that u always cherish the 'LOVE AND MEMORIES' attached with this rented place called MANIPAL.

Dedicated to 2011-2013 Mtech. (PG - EEE) Batch of Manipal Institute of Technology,Udupi, Manipal.